So, I've spent the last several years being judged my many people in my life. Those people who are important to me, and I'd typically value their opinions. But as I have entered my mid-20s, I have realized more and more the woman God called me to be.
Early in my first pregnancy, I felt God whispering to me to leave the situation I was in. That He had a better plan for me. It took me a long time to listen. And when I finally did, I was glad. I shed my rebellious nature and started to reform myself. At that point, I'd known for a while I was called to be a mother and a wife. I was blessed to be put in a situation where that is possible.
Some women are called to be single and not have any children. Some women are single mothers. Some others, like myself, are homemakers. I know one thing for sure, that slowly, I realized that I had to give my life over to God. I still slip and fall. I still make mistakes. But I get up and start over again because He forgives our sins. But I am living the life and I am being the woman that He called me to be.
For those of you who have decided you don't like my choices, I'm okay with that. I'm also okay with the fact that we're going to have four children, that we live in the country, and that I'm a stay at home mom. So if I'm okay with it, and I'm happy, then why can't you be happy for me? The gossip hurts. It does get back to me. I also shouldn't have to explain myself to people, yet here I am.
I could have stayed living in my past life. Who knows what kind of darker paths I could have gone down? Be grateful that frankly, I pulled my head out of my rear end and started making better choices. Let me be who Jesus has called me to be. I am blessed with a wonderful husband and soon to be four beautiful children. I am called to be their mama and I'm right where I should be.